So right now I'm a college student. I'm going to school and I'm working part time as a mechanic. I have a lot on my plate and these last few weeks have been bearing down on me cuz I have a huge paper to write for my marketing class and my other classes have exams and assignments. All due by the middle of next week. So I'm stressed. I'm falling apart. I'm regressing and all I want to do is play stupid video games and watch tv. I don't want to so this. I just want to give up! It's so hard!! So my friend Dustin called me. And I told him I'm stressed out. And all he tells me is "go for a run. Take a break and come back to it. You got this man!" Here's the text I sent him after I took his advice....
Well. I took your advise and I went for a run. The first 1.5 miles I just worked on breathing. It's been awhile since I've gone for a run. I wanted to stop. I wanted to take a break and pray. To figure out why I'm so stressed. But I didn't stop. I didn't stop cuz I set a goal for myself. I decided I would run a 5 k. And I was timing myself. So I prayed while I ran. I asked why it's so hard. Why can't I decide what I want! What do I want? Well, I want a family. I want a wife that I love and a family that I can provide for. I want to find joy in my future by providing for and teaching them (my future family) values. So why is it so hard? Well becuase nothing good comes easy. I need to learn to work. To push and keep on pushing even when I want to quit. When I want to take a break. Because if I don't fight for what I want I will never earn it. How can I find and impress my future wife if I can't even impress myself! Yeah maybe I don't know what I want to do. And maybe this class won't be my career. But it is teaching me discipline. It's teaching me how to learn. How to push when I feel like giving up. So I'll push. And I'll ignore the distractions in my life. The things that pull me in and knock me off course. I'll simplify my life so I can see my end goal. So I ran. And I kept running. And I started to hurt. My body ached and my lungs were screaming. But I pushed. And I never slowed down. I kept fighting. "IM A WARRIOR!!!" And I finished my goal. One 5k without a single rest. Without slowing my pace. 3.1 miles in 24 min. Average pace of 8 min a mile. I did it! I completed that goal! And now I'll fight for my goal to strengthen my mind. To push for a better future for my kids that I already love more that I even understand. Thanks D for pushing me and being there when I'm beating up on myself. Your an amazing friend! I'm glad our paths crossed cuz your one of my best friends. Now quit distracting me! I got a paper to write!
